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[03 Oct 2006|04:14pm]
long time, no update. pff.

not much is going on, really. I started my new job. it sucks. I have no personal life. yeah, I'm making decent money...but I would also like to have a life, for that money. I guess it will come after I save.
one thing I never wanted to do is work a 9 to 5 job, monday through friday. sunday night go to bed early and do it all over again. I dont want that, and I have never wanted that. I'm not saying that is what is going to happen.

but goddamnit, I already want a break.

it's weird how you can have an amazing band, an amazing girlfriend, a decent job. and somehow..shitty feelings always seem to squeeze its way in, somehow.

still looking forward to moving out. when ever the hell that is going to be, I couldnt tell ya. I owe my dad so much money right now. who knows when I'm actually going to beable to start saving for an apartment. I would like to be moved out before my 18th birthday. but I dont know if that is likely.

I have no friends at work. there's one guy that I talk to on occasion, he's pretty cool. but it sucks. I guess work isint really for having friends. but I think if you are at a place 5 days out of the week, for 40 hours...you should atleast have 1 friend there.

kay and I are really good. we've been dating for 8 months now. which is insane for me. I've never dated someone for that long, and still had feelings so strong. I've never dated ANYONE for that long. perioud.
we have our times of arguing. and it sucks. and it kills me. and I know it kills her. I know every couple argues. but if there was someway arguing could cease..I would like that alot. we are still planning to move out, and have a life together.
I couldnt imagine having a life with anyone else, but her. she is my life, and she makes me the happiest guy in the world. and I'm extremely lucky to have someone in my life, like her. its rare to find someone like her, that you can honestly say and believe, that you feel and will be with that person for the rest of your life. and you look forward to spending every second, every feeling, every emotion, with that person...

because I do. nomatter how many times we argue, or yell, or say hurtful things. It's never intended to hurt either one of our feelings. sometimes things are just not going the way you want them to. and we dont think before we say things. it's alright.

because I know. it will all work out. and noone knows me like she does. and noone treats me like she does. and noone has EVER. made me feel like she has, and does. it's never boring with her. it never gets old. I'm never tired of talking, or hanging out with her.

I'm in all. that she's mine.

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[29 Aug 2006|12:48am]
so everything is almost amazing. I FINALLY have my car working. and I am driving it now. so thats pretty amazing.
I'm now one of the guitarist of this is renaissance. which is a fucking DREAM for me. that is honestly one of the best things that has ever happened for me. and I really think I deserve it. I finally have my shit together, as in the whole drinking thing..havent drank in about 6 months. which, if you know me..you know that is incredible for me, and damn near impossible. but it has been almost that long, and I am pretty proud of myself. I also think I deserve it because, well I've always listend to RWD, and TIR relegiously haha, and I've been playing guitar for almost 9 years..its about time I got a break, and did something I really have been wanting to do.

kay and I are still doing amazing. we're still as strong as everrrr. she is also one of the best things that has ever happened to be as well. if it wasnt for her, I seriously would not be where I am at right now. I would still be drinking, and not giving a shit about anything, or anyone. so she is the number 1 reason I am doing so good. we are still planning on moving out as quick as we can. but me not having a job, has put us behind haha. but I am working pretty hard to find one. if everything works out, HOPEFULLY we'll be moved out by ATLEAST december. cross them fingers.

welllll thats about it for me. does anyone ever read my posts, anyways?

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[24 Aug 2006|01:23am]
I love you kay.

( of the barrel )

[18 Aug 2006|10:29pm]
I thought you'd come back at least i prayed (so i prayed)
the romance has been dead (the romance is dead, the romance is dead)
for years (you come back)
but i've been too afraid to dig the grave (so i prayed)
relief support never came

memories carry me through the day
of when we were kids
and angels came to watch us play

close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

a movie that plays in my mind
remembring you helps me survive
every day a re-run of the next
i promised to stay by your side
that all would change, i can't complain
another victim of the game

close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

maybe love will find us again
for there is always tomorrow
sincerely till the end
close my eyes just for tonight
the sun still sleeps and when she wakes,
close my eyes just for tonight
the sun still sleeps and when she wakes

close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
close my eyes, just for tonight
the sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

you'll be a memory (be a memory)
you'll be a memory (be a memory)
you'll be a memory (be a memory)
you'll be a memory, memory, memory, memory.

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[09 Aug 2006|01:21am]
I just wanna sit back and watch ATL with my girl. really fucking seriously

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[17 Jul 2006|12:56am]
I want an apartment with kay
I want a good job that I can keep
I want my car to hurry and get done
I want to be in a good band
I want to get married to kay
I want her and I to move to the beach
I want to make new friends
I want her and I to be happy
I want everyone I know, to be happy.

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[13 Jul 2006|04:08pm]
I think it's nearly impossible for things to go, the way I want them to go.
pretty much impossible.

( of the barrel )

[08 Jul 2006|07:48pm]
when death sleeps, it dreams of you.

dead girl, there will never be another one to look in your eye.
dead girl, there will never be, another one that bleeds like you.

I been dryin' in a dead age
I been reekin' of the new plague
The sound of the ocean is dead
It's just the echo of the blood in your head
Sister burn the temple
And stand beneath the moon
The sound of the ocean is dead
It's just the echo of the blood in your head

acid bath brings back some memories.

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[06 Jul 2006|11:55pm]
kala anne overbey
will soon be
kala anne palmer.

that's right.

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[05 Jul 2006|04:13am]
ahh so I finally got a car. it's a nissan maxima. pretty sweet if ya ask me. gonna be alot of good riding around in that car.

gonna call the some places to see if they need any workers. hopefully I will get my license friday. and a job.

I miss my girl.

lame fuckers

( of the barrel )

[26 Jun 2006|03:57am]
the shit is hitting the fan with my family right now. and I wish I could do something about it.
things are about to change.
I wish kay was here with me right now.
I wish my brothers girlfriends parents were not controlling fucking bastards.
I wish my brother and his girlfriend could just see eachother and be happy.
why.cant.things.just.work.out.for.the.good.

( of the barrel )

[22 Jun 2006|12:15am]
I’ll stay, if you want. But I could never be who you imagine to be.
I’ll stay, I don’t know what else to do, but I cant change, for you.
I wont change, for you.

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[12 Jun 2006|08:38am]
alrighty. everything is picking up right now, and going, I guess. I'm working my job doing mostly construction type work. I make about $7.50 an hour and work about 47 hours a week. so that is pretty good money. but it's hard ass work. I need a raise. HA.

I still plan on moving out here in a few months or so. I'm gonna save as much as possible and try to get close to $2000 before moving out. just so I can have acouple months rent and money for food, and what not. everything should be fine. just have to wait it out.

I dont want to wait so long to move out, but I dont want to have any problems with paying my rent..so it will be worth the wait.

my whole "being in a band" is picking up, atleast I'm telling myself that. I went over to brandons from whitechapel, and recorded a song. I just recorded the first guitar, and then we put the drums over it. I still have to patch up a few places on the first guitar, then do the second guitar, and then bass and vocals. it sounds pretty good so far. right now I'm in the process of writing material. so I can have like 4 songs on my band myspace, THEN I can start looking for members to play my shit. if you wanna hear a ruff recording of what I'm going for..you can go here www.myspace.com/nathansproject
I still dont have a name for the band. I'm also in the process of finding members. so far I have a guitarist and a drummer trying out. we'll see how that goes.

for those that care..kay and I are amazing. and have never been stronger. we have hit acouple ruff spots, not because of us..but because of other people (cough cough parents cough) haha but everything is great. we plan on staying together and moving out soon. she supports me in everything I do, and backs me up 100%.

pick it up pick it up pick it up pick it up pick it up pick it up picking it up picking it up picking it up picked it up.

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[07 Jun 2006|12:18am]
so I got a job. I have to start workin at 7:30 in the morning and I wont be done until sometime after 4. yeah, it's gonna be ruff. the guy said he is going to be working me no less than 40 hours a week. they are starting me out at $7.50 an hour for the first 30 days. then I get a raise. my friend worked there for four months before he quit and they had him at $11 an hour. so hopefully I will get close to that. it's gonna be hard work but, hopefully the pay will be worth it.

plans that get set at a later date is a bitch. especially if they were plans that you were looking foward to.

still dont have a license or car. I "should" be getting one soon. but that has been said before. so..I have no clue.

where did everyone go

Your life has been so hard
It's been dried up angels that can't keep guard
I'm trying to reach your hand
But I'm on fire
I never planned to fade... away
Stay with me
Stop pretending when they say that you're nothing

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[30 May 2006|02:28am]
alright boys and girls. things are moving pretty good for me.

alittle catching up for ya.

finally got a job. I have to go back thursday to get my uniform and such. I will probably start no later than next week.

I'm going tomorrow morning to get my license. hopefully I will pass.

I should have my car very very soon.

will be moving out into an apartment in august or september.

not playing in any band with anyone. still.

kay staying the weekend and monday is the best thing in the entire world. and I cannot wait until we get married.

the song strangle hold by ted nugent. is all I'm saying. mat harmon will be the only one to understand me on this one. and he knows it.

livejournal is boring. but I have no life.

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[28 May 2006|12:47am]
fucking hank williams jr.

I suggest you download 'come and go blues' right now.

( of the barrel )

[26 May 2006|11:32pm]
so just stop pretending, when they say you're nothing.

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[25 May 2006|10:00pm]
the word "Friend" means...

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.


get.
fucking.
bent.

( of the barrel )

[24 May 2006|02:10pm]
whoever I start a band with...

the better want to do a cover of SLAUGHTERED by pantera.

after all these years I have forgotten how amazing metal that song is.

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[22 May 2006|10:32pm]
why is it so hard to find dedicated people to play metal.

I may never know.

black dahlia murder will be played at my funeral.

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